Gold

by Brian Bulger

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about

These songs are about pain.
We are all holding on, struggling to keep our fragile lives still.
Sometimes all we see is the dirt in our lives and relationships,
but there is value in the struggle.
Scrape the dirt away and see the gold.


Musicians:

Acoustic Guitar & Vocals / Brian Bulger
Violin / Taylor Gibson
Keys / Phillip Bulger
Bass & Drums / Dalton O' Connor
Electric Guitar / Sutton Porth

BGV on 'My Son' / Madeline Hanley
BGV on 'Tend' & 'Bricklayer Heart' / Rachel Bulger
BGV on 'All I Know to Do' / Brittany Bradford

All lyrics and music by Brian Bulger.

Mixing and mastering by Doc O' Connor Audio.
www.dococonnoraudio.com

Recorded in Republic, MO.

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released April 27, 2016

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Brian Bulger Springfield, Missouri

I want to create music that creates change.

20. KC, SGF.

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Track Name: My Son
You never needed much,
just a conversation
You shuddered at the touch
of simple fascination
Well I cut those ties,
and I slammed that door
With all my lies,
what was I good for?

Dead still in your bed
That joy was killed years ago
Practiced words in your head
You’re showing all you can show

My son, I left you this way
My fortune, was a silver cage
Deep sigh, and your head hung low
Follow my shadow, my shadow

You were the golden child, in a gravel world
They said tame that wild animal
But you can’t rest him, there’s a noise inside
That constant question, who am I?

I’m dead still in my bed
I killed that joy years ago
There’s haunted words in my head
From that letter you wrote
I’m trying to read it
And stand up and face him
‘Cause all that he needed
Was a conversation
Track Name: Tend
Visions blur
of what we were on that Saturday
Memory fades
you gave only pain as you walked away

In the middle of the night you sang that song so slow
I’d forgotten what it was like to have my heart so low

You tend to love me, when you’re high above me
You tend to want me, when visions haunt me
Can’t you see I’m breakin’
From the very start
I just wanted you to tend to my heart

Keep your change
you’re just pretending I see right through
You paint the road
with the coldest story you ever told

In the middle of the night you sang that song so slow
I’d forgotten what it was like to have my heart so low

You can hide all you want
But I see right through
You can fake all you want
I can see you’re bruised
I can see you
I can see you
Track Name: Give Me Your Ghosts
She’s drinking from the corner
Of our dust-filled cement
And she’s wishing she was older
To regret the things she meant to say

She’s thinking that horizon
Shines only on the good
The whispers keep on piling
She’s wishing she understood, understood

Give me your ghosts, give me your ghosts
And I will carry it all, carry it all, oh oh, carry it all
Give me your ghosts, give me your ghosts
And I will carry it all, carry it all, oh oh, carry it all

And she’s hiding underneath the covers
She wants to be just like her mother
She’s hiding underneath the covers
Oh who would even bother,
to come and be,
her shelter

In the churches and the meetings
It’s a posed piece of art
But the secret that she’s keeping
Makes her wants to fall apart, fall apart

Maybe they’ll put down their phones
Realize they’re not alone
Stop the shouting, go down the hall
Catch her as she falls
And they’ll catch her as she falls
Catch her as she falls
Tell her it’s not her fault
Tell her it’s not her fault
Track Name: Bricklayer Heart
This city, full of mystery, but I’ve found it out
This color, like no other, but I’ve wiped it out
Those mountains, flow like fountains, but I’ve drained them out
This midnight, we’re told to sit tight, but I’m running out

You take my trembling hands
With my bricklayer heart, you make your plans
I can’t go on and on
Would you cover me with a steady song?

Those bright eyes, full of sunrise, but the moon was out
That laughter, pitter-patter, but I could only shout
Please forgive me now
I couldn’t let the light out

(With) My bricklayer heart
I won’t get very far
It’s all coming down
To your sweet, sweet sound


I remember that feeling, like cracks in the ceiling
And I’d wake up and see the damage I’d done
And I was just another son, of this constant numb, that for some
Seems to break our lungs and shatter our make-believe homes of safety
And it would break me, tell me I was the fake me, until I would forget me

Like a storm chaser I sought out the fear
‘Cause there was always something wrong with having my head clear,
I couldn’t just sit tight, knowing that tomorrow was another fight
And the day to day chaos was ripping out the light
Alone, forgotten, I was set on the highest shelf
I was not remembered, so I forgot myself

It’s easy to see the damage you’ve done, when you tell yourself everyday
But I’m not just another son, of this constant decay
I’ll find the joy in the morning, and I reach out and grab it
I found the answer when I realized, I didn’t have it
Track Name: All I Know to Do
Never thought that I’d be here
Sitting all alone
Never thought after all these years
I’d be a stepping stone

Down where we couldn’t find our words
The memory won’t leave my mind
I know what I should have said
Oh time won’t you be kind

We run away, it’s all we know to do
We change our ways, and curse the roads we choose
Well I’m holding on to you, always

Like swords we cut our dreams apart
Always playing it safe
No this heart never made it far
The unknown too great to face

Well here you are with your head held high
And I’m still stuck down here
I never knew what love was
Until it disappeared

Well I’m holding on to you
‘Cause it’s all I know to do
And I’m born, with a coward’s heart
In the blackest of nights
You’re holding me so tight
And I’m always moving
But you stay the same

We run away, it’s all we know to do
We change our ways, and curse the roads we choose
Well I’m holding on to you, ‘cause it’s all I know to do
I’m holding on to you, always